I still can't believe it. Life feels like a nightmare that I can't wake up from. None of us are getting out of here alive. Sickness, old age, an accident or some other horrid way of dying get closer with each passing day. For all of us. I hope one day I wake up to an alternate reality and this world and life turn out not to be real.
paul from cleveland
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The moment you know you will die, too
by dgp inat some point in life, everyone outside of the wtbts realizes that death if a fact of life.
no one gets to accept that fact easily, and the moment when you realize you will die, too, usually comes all of a sudden and takes you by surprise.
when you were a jw, did you have such a moment, even though the society told you you would never die?
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Does Our Being Former JWs Affect Our Enjoyment of XMas?
by minimus ini went to 2 parties yesterday.
i actually was invited to 4 this year.. i started out at my daughter's at 7:30 a.m. and my daughter, sil, 2 grandkids and my ex gave presents to one another.
95% of the gifts were for my 2 year old grandaughter because it was really her first xmas to unwrap presents and get into the "spirit".. then i went in the afternoon to my gf's and they had a big spread and we (once again) exchanged gifts.. here's my bottom line: i enjoyed the family and friends getting together.
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paul from cleveland
Thank you Mouthy. I do love my family. I participated in the dinner and the gift exchange but I just can't get the watchtower worldview out of my head. I don't hate the holidays but Christmas still seems wrong to me on so many levels. I just didn't enjoy myself there. I told my family I wasn't feeling well and left right after dinner.
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Does Our Being Former JWs Affect Our Enjoyment of XMas?
by minimus ini went to 2 parties yesterday.
i actually was invited to 4 this year.. i started out at my daughter's at 7:30 a.m. and my daughter, sil, 2 grandkids and my ex gave presents to one another.
95% of the gifts were for my 2 year old grandaughter because it was really her first xmas to unwrap presents and get into the "spirit".. then i went in the afternoon to my gf's and they had a big spread and we (once again) exchanged gifts.. here's my bottom line: i enjoyed the family and friends getting together.
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paul from cleveland
I didn't enjoy the christmas celebration at my sisters house. It all seemed so empty and meaningless. I left as soon as I could after dinner.
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I don't want to die.
by paul from cleveland ini've been conditioned since childhood that i'm going to live forever.
i'm having a hard time contemplating the fact that i'm going to die.
i'm so afraid of death that i can't enjoy the life i have now.
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paul from cleveland
Thank you for all your posts. I've read and reread them all.
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I don't want to die.
by paul from cleveland ini've been conditioned since childhood that i'm going to live forever.
i'm having a hard time contemplating the fact that i'm going to die.
i'm so afraid of death that i can't enjoy the life i have now.
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paul from cleveland
please let it be true. Let there be a God that loves us and saves us.
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I don't want to die.
by paul from cleveland ini've been conditioned since childhood that i'm going to live forever.
i'm having a hard time contemplating the fact that i'm going to die.
i'm so afraid of death that i can't enjoy the life i have now.
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paul from cleveland
I'll don't think I'll ever be able to get the watchtower teaching out of my head. I can't help thinking that somehow it's true but I'm just not good enough to qualify for it. I really want to live but I think death is imminent.
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I don't want to die.
by paul from cleveland ini've been conditioned since childhood that i'm going to live forever.
i'm having a hard time contemplating the fact that i'm going to die.
i'm so afraid of death that i can't enjoy the life i have now.
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paul from cleveland
gubberningbody, what you say makes total sense. I know it makes sense but my feelings tell me another story. My thoughts and feelings are out of sync.
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I don't want to die.
by paul from cleveland ini've been conditioned since childhood that i'm going to live forever.
i'm having a hard time contemplating the fact that i'm going to die.
i'm so afraid of death that i can't enjoy the life i have now.
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paul from cleveland
leavingwt and gubberningbody you've really given me something to think about. It's true just being here in the first place is a miracle. Believingxjw, it's true, there may be hope.
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I don't want to die.
by paul from cleveland ini've been conditioned since childhood that i'm going to live forever.
i'm having a hard time contemplating the fact that i'm going to die.
i'm so afraid of death that i can't enjoy the life i have now.
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paul from cleveland
What gives your life meaning? It all seems so pointless. When I was a witness, there was some point to it all. Something greater than myself.
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I don't want to die.
by paul from cleveland ini've been conditioned since childhood that i'm going to live forever.
i'm having a hard time contemplating the fact that i'm going to die.
i'm so afraid of death that i can't enjoy the life i have now.
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paul from cleveland
I have a hard time focusing on anything but the death sentence hanging over my head. How can I put it out of my mind and enjoy my life? I miss the idea of a God that looks out for me. I feel alone.